Monday, May 2, 2011

Okay. Calming down.

I took some 5HTP ("Converts to Serotonin, which converts to Melatonin..."), took about 800mg of ibuprofen, made myself a quart of tea (which, for some reason, tastes like Jager), sat down with my mother, worked out my questionnaire, and sent it off to the people I've already got hooked in. I then sent off my Request-To-Interview to three more people. I'll be finding more people later today. For now, however, I'm going to go into town with mom. Get her a new coffee maker, try to find tiny corks for my tiny bottles, get some eggs, and some food stuffs. Get propane before we run out.

I am good. I am getting back on track. I can do this.

Here. This is a list of things I would very dearly like right now.

In no particular order, because right now order is meaningless and this is partially just me bitching.
  • I would like not to have gotten into an argument with my mother yesterday about whether or not verbs belonged in a certain part of my father's obituary. 
    • Verbs are necessary everywhere.
  • I would like some melatonin, please. 
    • This insomnia shit sucks. 
      • On that note, I would very much like it if it were in fact today instead of yesterday, according to my somatic clock. 
  • I would like a steak. 
    • Rare. 
      • With a baked potato. 
        • And balsamic-caramelized onions. 
  • I would like to not be allergic to every-fucking-thing. 
    • Would pasta without corn in it be too much to ask? 
      • They make a delicious brown-rice pasta that tastes and acts just like semolina...
        • I can't find it in Spokane, though.
  • I would like to not be here, where my mental state is rocketed back to that of a five year old girl and I am unable to do anything productive. 
  • I would like to have the confidence to actually contact the people I need to for my project. 
    • This is directly related to the above point. 
  • I would like a ticket back to Olympia, so that I might be able to get some of my planned work done.
  • I would like internet that functioned properly.
  • I would like to have a bed that wasn't only mildly softer than the hardwood floor. 
  • I would like for everything not to be itchy. 
  • I would like to get my brain to function. 
  • I would like to stop spelling "function" as "funtion". 
  • I would like to be coherent right now.